Wednesday, November 4, 2009

This was a tough one...

I have been multi-tasking my classes lately. One of them is the Ali Edwards class at BPS called Yesterday and Today. I have been so inspired by the class and am (for the most part) actually keeping up to date on the layout assignments. Well, she didn't take it easy on us. In week 4, she asked us to do a layout about a challenge in our life, because those are what makes who we are along with the good stuff.

I struggled with this one... I knew in the back of my head it's been almost two years since the foster kids left us and I still hadn't scrapped a single picture of them. They were all still hiding on my hard drive, waiting to tell their story. So I finally buckled down with this challenge and got up a couple Saturdays ago, sat at my computer, and started typing. Before I knew it, the words were flowing, and so were my tears. It was very difficult to get through, but quite therapeutic in the end.

So to go along with my blog class, Shimelle talked yesterday about posting layouts that maybe you don't want too much info out on. And of course, for legal purposes, I can't post photos or their names. So here is the edited result of my layout...













If you click on the image, it will enlarge it and you can read the journaling. It's rather lengthy, but once I got started, I couldn't stop! There was a lot more to tell in this story then I thought there was.

I am really glad I did this layout. Hopefully it'll help me bring a little closure to that chapter in my life.

6 comments:

Jocelyn said...

Wow Lynney my heart was breaking for you reading your jounaling, what a terribly difficult and sad situation. I hope over time you can also remember more of the good things that you mentioned too.

You have created a beautiful layout, and the honesty of your journaling is amazing.

Heather said...

I hope that time brings you closure and the fulfilment of your dreams. I understand more than I can say and need to say that sometimes the damage is too great and there is nothing anyone can do, that is a different kind of parenting. Get in touch anytime if you want/need/would like to chat more hun xx Hang in there xx You are not alone!

Carol Z said...

As another person who has seen the failings of domestic state adoptions, I completely understand your pain. You did try and you did do your best. You weren't told the truth, which is what we found to be very common. They are trying so desperately to get children out of the system, they don't want to tell you the bad things. But you did the right thing and you will be good parents when your time comes. Take care.

Becky said...

That was heartbreaking to read, but I think you were incredibly brave and wish you and your husband a family in the future. You never know what God will bring you.

Kel said...

What a tough story! You and your husband were very brave and strong, and this won't be the end of your parenting story, I am sure.

Melanie Intiso said...

My heart aches for you guys. I know in my heart what wonderful parents you will be. I see it when you are with Isabella. I have faith that there is a reason for all of lifes challenges.

It was brave of you to publish it and preserve it. There was a two year gap in my scrapbooking when I was going through my divorce..so I know how hard it is to preserve those challenges and commit to putting it on paper. Love you!